For me the timetable is a difficult experience. I really would like for it to be nice and tight and easy to work with. This of course is a craving for control. In actuality it is humanly just not possible. The first reason is the type of demographic, our clients just don't come in conveniently, they come in whenever they want and expect us to do our thing for them. That means that the time table is changing constantly. It is in fact a true testament to trying to renounce craving for control.
The issue for me is not being able to renounce ego about it. I think the changes to the timetable are a direct reflection on me. which of course they aren't. Ego, you are not nice.
So I didn't run yesterday, emotionally I was spent. I had a tough week with some teachers as well and that was pretty difficult to work through also.
Ran today, nice little 12k. I made the decision to continue on with the process of upping the mileage so today I hope to go with 4 12ks and 2 15ks next week. With one day off.
Back to the run, nice a easy, good stuff. Everyone is different, it is an up and down thing, not to be controlled.