If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)

Sunday, September 2, 2012

New Week, Different Person, Different Mindfulness

A quick turnaround for me.  15k at about 9 a.m. today.  I usually go once every 24 hours, but systems create craving, craving creates disappointment, which in turn gives you anger, and the dependent arising goes on and on.  So, I decided to see what a 12 hour turnaround feels like these days.

Not bad, very easy Sunday run, nothing major other than the roads seem to be getting worse and worse and every time they fix one the road people don't seem to put it back together even close to the way it was before. It looks like there is a dearth of asphalt and therefore there are long stretches of roads that are uneven paved.  The 15k route has a hum dinger of a hill on it, as I've written before and today after the run there seems to be a twinge in the back in the usual place.  Could it be the approach to running the hill is long, too much lean maybe?  A nice run with a quick turnaround showing that it just isn't that big a deal and the 'system' as I call it is actually a crutch.

Interesting phenomena today was how the mind gets better on these longer runs.  Of course I was workign on following the breath and in the beginning it was less than successful, continually finding myself returning to the breath after losing it and floating off on some stupid thing in the future that will probably never happen but my worry over it gets in the way of any skillful concentration.

But the longer you are out there, and the more you start to just run, the better the concentration becomes and you can just follow the breath.  One at a time.  which always leads me to impermanence and the fact that every millisecond is a different road, shoe, sock, person.  I set no goals, as the person who achieves them will not be the person who set them.  But I do plan to wake up and go to work tomorrow and go moment by moment.  It will be a different person who wakes up, but maybe that person will be mindful?

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