If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)








Saturday, July 7, 2012

A whimpering start to July

Oh woe is me!  Woe! Woe!  After finishing last month badly, this month seems to have started even worse.  The best laid plans go straight to hell when DELTA Airlines is involved.  Didn't run Saturday to get ready for the flight back to Kyiv.  Boarded the Tallahassee flight just fine, arrived in Atlanta just fine, got in to the international concourse just fine...

DL 238 was scheduled for a 5:30 departure Saturday 30.06.12.  Never happened.  An international flight that gets cancelled!  They loaded the plane late, they got to the runway, they had a problem with a light, they couldn't fix it, they went back to the gate, they couldn't fix it, we got off the plane, they fixed it, we wanted to get back on the plane, then DELTA said they now had no crew, then the lied and said they had a crew, then they said they didn't know if they had a crew, then they fed us water and pretzels.  Then they lied some more, at 3:00 a.m. Sunday 01.07.12 they cancelled the flight!!!!  We collectively waited in line for changed flights, we got meal and hotel vouchers, we took a bus to the domestic side which dropped us off in the wrong place, I took a taxi to Days Inn Six Flags where I arrived at 5:00 a.m. and slept for 5.5 hours.  I got back in a car and arrived at the airport at 12:30 for a 3:45 flight ot Paris Charles DeGaulle.  Made that flight, made the flight to Kyiv.  Guess what didn't make it?  My luggage.   Two days later it arrived at my flat.

Awesome experience. DELTA airlines, worst experience I have had since I was flown half way around the world on a plane used to fly Muslims on Hajj to fight in Desert Storm (now that is irony).

Arrived in Kyiv at my flat around 2:00 p.m. on Mon 02.07.12.  I got in a 10km run on Tuesday that felt good to kick some rust off.  I went to sleep.  I woke up and started a CELTA training course as the trainer on Tuesday.  And then crash and burn.  I slept from 9:15 pm to 6:45 Tuesday and Wednesday.  I never could get out the door.  On Thursday I took a 1.5 hour nap and then ran at about 8 at night a very nice pleasant 12k.  I wanted to run Friday and Saturday. 

I just kept making excuses.  I have no excuses, I just could not get out the door.  I feel much better now that my body clock is back to normal after the Saturday/Monday experience.  A new week starts tomorrow, return without blame.

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