Today is Saturday, I didn't run Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday or Friday. Tuesday I actually was trying to show some common sense by now pushing things too far, I felt tightness that day so I just took a rest. The rest of the week I can only provide one simple excuse, fear.
While I did work, and work, and work, at the job all week, I still had more than my fair share of opportunities to get a run in. Each day my best excuse was, I'll give it one more day and that way it will be that much better off in terms of health when I run the next time." This is a very good excuse and my mind had no problem rolling with this the whole time. I even can tell you that I knew that my mind was doing it and that I was in fact mindful that it was not a real reason but a rationalization. Yet, I still did it out of fear.
Today's run was exceptional for about 10km. No pain, nothing, just running along, at about 10 km I got some tightness in the calf, not the pain as before, just tightness. We'll see how that works out. I'll ice it and elevate it and see what happens for tomorrow. No limping post run and stretching is not painful at all. It is possible this is just soreness, not related to the soleus (there the mind goes again, nice rationalization). In fact, it is what it is, it has no ownership, it is impermanent, unsatisfactory and without a self.
Serious monkey mind out there also. Some unwholesome, some wholesome but not much in the way of concentration, other than on my calf. At some points I did manage to concentrate on foot steps.
Still, I ran, lots of people did not today.
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