What started out as a normal week, Sunday and Monday, turned in to one long lesson on delusion, impermanence, returning without blame, right view, right understanding and ego related to non self.
Every where i turned this week my mind was able to just do what every it wanted. There was no mindfulness, therefore there was nothing there to get me back to wholesome thoughts, it was an interesting phenomena in terms of experiential right view. by Friday it was clear to me that what I have been experiencing over the last year is a good thing and what I was experiencing in four days was a microcosm of years of self imposed experiences based on mind or lack there of.
I have not run since Monday. fine. return without blame.
I have not been mindful, fine. return without blame.
I have not done so many things that I have been doing over the last few months, fine. return without blame.
Just let go and be. Easier to say than to do as everyone is surely aware. But at least being aware may be a mindful thought in itself?