If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

A Monkey with Discipline?

12k this morning again.  It took some work to get going though.  This was interesting to me.  I am still not sure why I seem to have trouble getting started.  In fact the run was quite nice, very wholesome, monkey mind but nothing extraordinary in terms of thinking.  Just was unable to keep focused on the breath for any real period of time.

I am intrigued about the continuing issue of getting out the door in the morning during the week.  Various feelings passed through, time constraints (needed to be at work in 2.5 hours), but there was more than enough time to do the run.  Difficulty getting walking?  Not really, after about 10 minutes I'm awake and after some coffee I am ready to go. 

This reflection though is productive.  Is it craving?  What kind of craving?  To run, or not to run?  Well I want to run.  This element of time seems to be the chance to talk myself out of doing the run.  Time?  Is this craving for control of the time?  An interesting phenomenon.

Still, like most runs it was mileage in the bank and nothing horrible, fantastic, merely neutral but those are the ones that build the bank.

A monkey out there, but disciplined enough to run and work through the time issue?

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