If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Strange and Bizarre

I managed to get out the door today at 10:00 a.m.  which is about 90 minutes later than I had planned.  But run I did and it was very nice.  I just don't see what the issue is for me trying to get out the door.  The runs themselves have been really wonderful.  Take today for example, nice and easy and light and actually in some places also smooth.

I'm struggling a bit with blood sugar when I am not running though.  I seem to be up and down a lot at the moment.  Perhaps I am not taking enough of the Lispro?  I think I will take a look at that.  With the decrease in mileage over the last few weeks maybe the Lispro number is too low and needs an increase.  But the danger there is if you increase and then catch a spurt where you actually run every day.  Of course I've shown no ability to do that in at least two months :)

Strange feelings, bizarre results when I run, just don't see why I can't get out the door.  Obsession with time for work?  Attachment?  Aversion?  Craving?  Just words, can't find any "emptiness" to hit the streets.

I did today though.

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