If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)

Friday, April 27, 2012

Is it really just the little things?

No run yesterday.  I developed some sort of tightness two days ago over the course of the day.  I think part of the problem was I ran, which was a bit of hard work, and then didn't get enough water and then had to sit in a taxi for 45 minutes trying to get across Kyiv to our other school to meet with the teachers over there.  When I got out of the taxi I could barely get around and that is when I noticed the tightness.

The area was behind the knee from mid calf to mid hamstring.  I worked a lot of stretching in to my day and finally got it worked out but didn't run yesterday which was kind of disappointing.  I went through some very interesting feelings yesterday and earlier before today's run.  It is the same feeling I had last week.  Like I was pressuring myself to run.  I was working on this most of yesterday and before I rose this morning.  Really going on with some strange feelings about this.  But then,...

I had a cup of coffee and headed out the door to run today, I really wasn't really feeling it, felt like I was trying to find an excuse.  I reached for my watch to start it, and it wasn't there... I decided not to go back up to the elevator, go upstairs track it down and then go back down and start the ritual all over again, I just started to run.

And then there was a release... I've thought about every since I finished the run, no watch, no worries.  Just running.  A great feeling, not worrying about beings stopped by traffic, not worrying about adjusting stride for the trail, not worrying at all.

How is it that such a little thing like time can relieve all that pressure?

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