If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. Meditating on No-Self: A Dhamma Talk (Edited for Bodhi Leaves), by Sister Khema(1994)

Monday, March 5, 2012

Letting yourself down? Or listening to your body?

I did not run today.  I spent most of yesterday trying to figure out why I felt so horrible after what was basically 15k at a fairly simple pace.  My left outer thigh was really tight and continually cramping.  I took a nap in the afternoon, something I haven't done in ages.  I then wrote in the blog about thinking I had let it go too long.  What do I do next? 

Not run today.  I still have soreness in that right outer thigh, a place I never have soreness.  No cramping, I've had lots of water.  I came up with about 10 excuses, but really there are none.  My body had no desire I guess.  What does that mean? 

We've had more snow.  It has gotten cold again.  Tonight's low promises to be -11C.  I have hopes of running in the a.m. before the whole day of work begins.

Did I let myself down?  Or did I listen?  I think I let myself down.  Hope to find out tomorrow.


  1. Firstly, congrats on running the 15K. I've struggled with a similar version to the question you pose. Mine is; Should I listen to my heart, or my head? On those days when I want so much in my heart to get up and hit the streets when the alarm rings, but my head, (body) is saying, slow the heck down! I need some time to recover! I feel a bit tortured.

    When running is a passion, joy, dedication, it's so tough to take those days, (and we've all had em!) to simply rest.

    The task is to get the heart to be okay with the head's decision on those days.

    Nothing bad about a good day's rest. You'll be a better runner for it.

    1. Hi Bree:

      Thanks for the comment. As you can see I'm trying to get ready for this run in Ireland, and the weather isn't cooperating. Hopefully tomorrows blog will be about another 15k. I know we all have these moments, even the phenomenal people who run those great times. But still, we each have our own demons don't we? :)


    2. Hey Mark,

      Yes. And the weather certainly can be a demon! It's turned cold here. I really don't like running at 5AM when it's below freezing.

      I can't wait to hear about your run in Ireland.

      Kick Butt!! ;-)