If we really want to get rid of suffering, completely and totally, then clinging has to go. The spiritual path is never one of achievement; it is always one of letting go. The more we let go, the more there is empty and open space for us to see reality. Because what we let go of is no longer there, there is the possibility of just moving without clinging to the results of the movement. As long as we cling to the results of what we do, as long as we cling to the results of what we think, we are bound, we are hemmed in. ,
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
And three days later...
Monday post 61km for the weekend I had nagging pain on the anterior of both knees. I had a day of worrying that my ITB was in bad shape or I had the dreaded tendinitis, which I of course, because I am foolishly my own doctor, believe is just ITBS.
I did a lot of walking on Monday and over the day both knees really loosened up. There was no nagging soreness in any other area. The drawback was that it was seriously snowing all day and so it was a slip and slide day which caused some slight twinge in the inner thigh.
I really intended to run Tuesday but the knees still had a bit, so I let it go thinking I would make it happen on Wednesday. But I also noticed I was still very tired and had the feeling I was getting sick. I wonder if this was breakdown or post long run stress, both, or something else.
Wednesday had good intentions, but was destroyed by work. Probably for the best, because I seriously felt run down. However, I also felt I had not eaten correctly over the last couple of days. At home after work I really hit the protein hard, along with vitamin C fruits. As I write I actually don't feel the same as when I did when I was at the office today.
Like I said lots of lessons. One, have to eat correctly afterward, not only before. Two, the rest day on Monday is mandatory and Tuesday isn't so bad either. Three, the endocrine effects for my Type 1 diabetes do last a long time, I am still processing everything I eat, including processed sugars quickly and with less insulin that usual. However, there has been no effect on my long term Lantus (15 u every night at 9 p.m.). No dosage change there, but dosage of Humulog is at about 75% of normal even this Wednesday, on Sunday and Monday it was a full 50% less. Also, there were no liver spikes as I call them, when you BS suddenly jumps.
I really hope to get in 15 Thursday and Friday and then do 25k Sat and 25k Sun.