Steps were mindful today, unfortunately the mind was not. Interesting phenomena is that the unwholesome thoughts kept coming up but the steps did not change today. In the past if they came up the steps changed also. This I guess is progress, but can't cling to it.
It occurs to me that all that arises ceases. This great period of running, the quickest I've had since I started running again in 2006 after a 13 year layoff will eventually have to come to an end for the simple reason that all that arises, ceases.
I feel myself clinging to each result for most of the day, and then later in the day beginning to work on having the next run be independent of the last as that it has no permanent self to it and I don't own the run and I'm just lucky to be running.
Noticing this fear of the runs becoming worse, must be worked with, meditation on this will be the subject of tonight's sit.
A friend told me during the down period, 'just be'.